Yesterday I made a few paper trades on ThinkOrSwim.com “webBAsedTrading” a phrase capitalized, programmers will note, like code in a script. This makes sense because I think you can actually go into the code at Think or Swim. They have a pretty nice paper trading function. Charts are decent, there’s live CNBC should you want it, two radio stations so I guess you can hear economic indicator releases as well as earnings and so on. It’s all pretty nice. I got everything going in just a few minutes, the quotes I wanted and so on. There are only two charts ever up at a time, the main screen chart and a mini side frame chart.
I closed out all of my positions this morning. Up 2.8% on a fake $100,000 account, so overall a very good trade. Five wins and one loss. The loss was in euro/usd futures. The wins were in shorting s&p 500 futures and commodities: front month silver, corn, and to a lesser extent gold.
Why did I short commodities and the dollar at the same time? I don’t know. I was looking for the dollar to make a counterintuitive move ahead of the news events: non-farm payroll (employment) numbers and the Fed Committee meeting. It was a bad move. I knew it was a bad move. Another reason was that I wanted some kind of a hedge and there wasn’t a way to buy options. I thought I might wiggle my way out of the trade once I knew where things seemed headed. Of course this is not a good way to trade — to trade against yourself. But I was trying to use my intuition and trying to feel the market, with the idea that perceiving is faster than judging. When I perceive, it doesn’t mean that I’ve come to any conclusion. Instead what I’ve perceived is like a new <i>in</i>clusion . Whereas when I judge, I am making a final decision. Yes or no. Otherwise I have tried to judge but I have not judged. But because so often I judge that things are not able to be judged, I need to use perception and intuition. I need to sense developments as they’re just starting.
I felt that commodities would fall, that corn would fall. The hype was just so huge. Wheat had already fallen for a while, and now it was time for wheat’s rebound or for corn to fall as well. People would want out before the FOMC statement, especially people who were long. Likewise for the US stock market, so I shorted the S&P.
Everything hinged on my view that the Fed FOMC minutes would mention rising commodity prices, possibly use the word inflation (whether or not a more precise definition of that term were included) and also signal that this was the last 25bp cut. This was a pre-FOMC trade, the beginning of the wait. The inconsistency I allowed in the name of hedging was one of time frames. It seems to me that I bought euro because I wanted some kind of currency exposure, and the dollar had just bounced back five cents against the euro, and with opinion sounding so strongly in the dollar’s favor it seemed like there could be a snap back. But really I though that this might be after the Fed decision, so it was a trade for after the decision, and therefore it was the wrong trade for the occasion. But I held on to it. This was the real problem. I made the bad trade, I knew it was bad, but I had this “what if” in my head, and more, a repugnance toward taking a loss. So I had to take a bigger loss on my euro/usd trade, but ended up over all. (It turns out I was right.)
The problem with the euro trade wasn’t so much that I made it in the first place, but that I managed it poorly, not cutting losses despite telling myself to. This lack of trading discipline has been my greatest weakness. I’ve found it difficult to take losses, maybe because I’m so damn sensitive.
Another problem I have is letting my good ideas be warped by actual short-term trading so that I find myself in positions that are opposite my longer view of the markets. Then if I feel stuck in a position I may be contorted into something that’s opposite my market view. For example I’m now long S&P futures, and I’m down. I need 1391 to get out (near-month futures price) without a loss. I would cut but I think stocks should rise a bit after the Fed cut and some appearance of commodity price reversals, and because money coming out of housing still has to go somewhere. If the dollar appears to be bottoming this will also provide an incentive to be in US equities.